ROCK ON in style.
Sunday, January 14, 2007
it's freaking cold now cause it has been raining for the past few days. i was wearing my pl jacket just now and all those memories of being in the hall before O's came floating back. haha yesterday hilda and i went back to pl to help sweedy with drill. it's a weird feeling. i remember looking at meifang and sabrina and all those seniors who came back, thinking how grown-up they are, how feeble we looked beside them, and when we'll ever be like them. but now it doesnt even feel very much different. except that some of them are really small compared to us last time. haha. and honestly, pl aint very much different from the old school! except for some new tables, classrooms, clean new walls not vandalised yet and new plants, the rest are about the same. same toilets and benches and toilet bowls(!!), and they cut off the gb mural. put a wall in the middle for dunno what reasons, and basically separated the old toilet into two now. haha now we know where all those moolahs we raised went to.

i've been thinking... my life experience is rather shallow. i may say alot about having my own career in the future instead of settling for a housewife life, but when it really comes to that stage of my life, it's a different thing altogether. nobody at home seem to have alot of confidence in whatever i do. and under this kind of environment, i grew up not telling my parents or elder bro alot of stuff. keeping things under wrap became a norm, not only for me, but i think for my bro as well. so whenever there's an occasion where my bro and i share stuff, a small voice in my head whispers, "so this is what my bro does when he's out." or in other words, "so this is how little i know about my bro." i'm stuck between being ashamed and helpless that i know so little about the people i live under the same roof with. no i'm not lamenting, cause that doesnt help. but it's just puzzling how this suddenly occured to me now.

so maybe you'll understand why i love family gatherings so much. even though i may see some of my relatives once in a few months. but it's the whole get-together idea. that heart-melting atmosphere where i can feel safe and secure cause these are the people who'll always love me for who i am, and not how pretty or rich or intelligent i may be. no arrogance, no back-biting, no hidden motives. cause, ohana means family, and family means no one gets left behind. (:

8:37 PM

THE GIRL j

debbie lin/240388/ex-pl/acjc

MUSIC j


jay chou--mi dian xiang
ashley parker angel--let me go
hillsongs--from the inside out
wang lee hom--ai de jiu shi ni
 john mayer--waiting on the world to change
WISHLIST j

love. joy. peace. laughter

DEPARTURE j

hilda tiff pearlyn shan diane poon sweedy jen jasmine tan serene caiying hazel reagan clemon samuel irwin karmen claire pam sylvia huiling fran serene jasmine meihui melinda laureen lene audds jialing

SNAPSHOTS j

zznc AC days outside famile church m'sia trip Dec'05 cruise Nov'05 CNY '06 18th birthday '06

TAGBOARD j



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